Category: Diary

so it occurred to me last night that i have *one* week left. somehow in my head i still have two weeks – this week and next week – but no cause today is tuesday and my due date is next tuesday so that is actually only one week!! so then i couldnt go to sleep cause i was thinking of all the stuff i still have to do. stuff i purposely hadnt done yet cause it could only be done at the last minute (like house cleaning…ya clean it too early and it just gets dirty again..or packing my suitcase cause i would still need those clothes) but now it *is* the last minute. woah.

yesterday paul was called into a meeting. when he got there, it turned out that his coworkers had thrown him a surprise baby shower with food and party plates and a ton of gifts. im so glad that paul got to be a part of some baby stuff for him and not just everything being centered around me all the time. we got a ton of stuff: a jumper activity center, a handmade quilt (i almost started crying when i saw it), a playmat that turns into a cart cover, a diaper bag, 4 receiving blankets that are super soft, a bib, two outfits, a toy frog that makes funny noises, a ceramic piggy bank full of money, a huggies gift pack, a toy security blanket with bunny head, and a blender (i registered for that for me and didnt think anyone would actually buy it for me lol).

we got a new car!! after car shopping at carmax on saturday we had picked out that we liked the subaru tribeca. then i got online to search all the avail tribecas in a 250 mi area and picked out a pretty silvery green one in alabama. tues night we got a call at 7pm that it had arrived at the kennesaw carmax and would be ready in an hour. so we met them there at 8 to have a look at it. we intended to trade in the mustang for it, but when we were nearly done with the paperwork we discovered that you cant trade in a used vehicle if it doesnt have current tags. they had already given us an appraisal offer of $3000 for it (which i was excited about cause kelley blue book said 2500), so what we had to do was write a check for $3000 in its place and take the mustang back home with us. we were still able to take home the tribeca, too, luckily cause i was sooo excited about getting it. once we get the tags fixed on the mustang we can take it back to carmax and they will write us a check back for the $3k. so as of right now we have 5 vehicles: camaro, mustang, truck, tribeca, and the motorcycle.

so on weds came the car juggling. eleanor erin (the camaro) was in the shop being repaired mon-weds. we had to get the driver’s side window fixed and the throttle cleaned and the spark plugs replaced or something like that.  this is her third time being in the shop since dec (rear differential in dec, then the alternator in like jan or feb). anyhow so she was in the shop and the truck and mustang both need new tags. so yesterday i went to the shop in the truck and traded them the truck for the camaro. then today paul went back to the shop to trade them the mustang for the truck. then we still hafta go back to carmax to sell them the mustang and we hafta take the tribeca to the carmax shop for them to do the To Do list (the list of stuff they agree to fix before selling a used car. in this case get us a clicky-click and replace a fog light).

(these are publishing under pauls acct cause im on his computer. my computer is dead)

we just got out of one of the baby classes – motherhood. this is the one that is like 14 hours long and covers labor, birth, and breathing techniques. i hated it. i mean i knew wasnt going to be interested in the lamaze crap, but she started off the class with firs go around the room and introduce yourself and then made us get into girls vs boys and play jeopardy. luckily i didnt end up having to talk but the possibility of it put me into major anxiety attack mode that lasted the next two hours until our break and i could go outside in the sun and calm down. then at the end we had to sit on those stupid birthing balls and do those stupid breathing things. i felt retarded. and ended up anxious again. today’s clsas was 1-5 and i spent pretty much the whole time trying to remember to breathe and watching the clock. we are not going back next weekend, i cant take any more of that.

as an aside, 2 of the 3 classes ive had so far had someone in it i knew from sprayberry. the first one was a girl i think her name was kristi masters or something like that? and then today was matt burns’s older brother.

a response on the forums about placentophagy and would you eat it:

i would not.

i cannot.

i could not.

i would not eat a placenta on toast;

i would not eat it as a roast;

some have made from it a stew

but i can only say eeeeeeeeww.

This is day number 231 and you’re 33 weeks pregnant!
You have 49 days or 7 weeks left, and are 82.5% of the way there.

my baby is a pineapple

ahh im getting so stressed out. i feel like im running out of time. this week alone ive been dealing with girl scouts (a field trip to atlanta, leader’s meeting, cookie sales), selling cars, buying a new car, buying a stroller, buying furniture, paul’s eye surgery, doctors, the usual life tasks/errands/chores, and homework. i feel like crap all the time and dealing with all this stuff is enough to worry about on its own without throwing in the fact that im off the SSRIs so everything is making me anxious.

girl scouts is so much more work than i had originally anticipated which in itself is usually fine, but when youre feeling overwhelmed, it’s a major stresser. planning meetings, planning field trips, coordinating said meetings and field trips, leaders meetings, finances, driving to atlanta, getting project materials together, registration, cookie sales (thank gods lisa was cookie mom!), etc.

i still have so much baby stuff to do. i dont have a stroller or any furniture yet…or even picked out. i really need to get over to babies r us to find them.

i need to get one car ready for sale and find and buy a new one. this is my first time actually picking out a car and it took research, thought, discussion and i still havent even been to the lot. not to mention a husband that wont help with any of it.

ive been so bad about homework this “semester”. i have my test coming up soon and am less than half way thru the course. i need to get all the rest of the chapters read by the end of march so im constantly worrying about getting all my homework done. how am i supposed to take a test when i cant remember anything ever?

i feel crappy all the time. i just want to stay in bed and have the world go away. only being in bed is uncomfortable, too. so even that isnt much fun anymore.

only seven weeks left…..

By now, your baby weighs 3.75 pounds (pick up a large jicama) and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You’re gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, she’ll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb. She now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). Her skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth.
To accommodate you and your baby’s growing needs, your blood volume has increased 40 to 50 percent since you got pregnant. With your uterus pushing up near your diaphragm and crowding your stomach, the consequences may be shortness of breath and heartburn.

You may have lower-back pain as your pregnancy advances.Assuming it’s not preterm labor that’s ailing you, you can probably blame your growing uterus and hormonal changes for your aching back. Your expanding uterus shifts your center of gravity and stretches out and weakens your abdominal muscles, changing your posture and putting a strain on your back. Hormonal changes in pregnancy loosen your joints and the ligaments that attach your pelvic bones to your spine. This can make you feel less stable and cause pain when you walk, stand, sit for long periods, roll over in bed, get out of a low chair or the tub, bend, or lift things.

(in no particular order)

1. throwing up…all the time, everything you eat

2. heart burn

3. stress incontinence

4. bladder punches

5. cramps

6. leakage

7. stretch marks

8. can’t climb stairs w/o getting winded

9. leg cramps that keep you up at night

10. back ache

11. can’t roll over in bed

12. painful kicks

13. lungs squished/ can’t lie flat on your back

14. acne

15. frequent doctor appointments

16. getting your blood drawn all the time

17. the diabetes test

18. not having any clothes that fit

19. can’t pick up stuff off the ground

20. memory loss

21. no cold medicine

22. no motrin for muscle aches

23. loss of my zoloft has made me crazy

24. no alcohol

25. maternity bras

26. not being able to do activities/sports

27. always hungry

28. hurts to sneeze/abdominal muscles

29. gassy

30. always achey and tired

31. can’t walk fast

32. no energy to do stuff (chores)

33. baby classes

34. reading boring baby books about all the horrible things that happen to you in pregnancy