ally-cat

I’ve discovered why i have none. in cleaning house today, i discovered like 6 pairs of socks wedged under my desk and computer and other various places around my computer area.

ive finally gotten in touch with the caterer (after playing phone tag for a month) and i have an appointment for tomorrow morning. in related news, after a big phone arguement with the chevy place, they’re paying for that extra day on the rental car.

theres a new guy in the specialty department at petsmart. once hes trained and they hire one more person, i can go down to part time hours. hopefully it doesnt take too long to hire someone, but theyre super slow. *sigh* i really have soo much to do lately and not enough time to do it cause im always working. i need like 3 or 4 days in a row off to take care of everything. i mean id have time to get more done if i hung out with my friends less, but cause of my work schedule i hardly ever get a chance to see them so when i do get a day off i spend the whole time going out and seeing people rather than doing my chores.

saturday night i went to a party at danielle’s house. bryan, dixie, analiese, linda, and devin (all Psmart people) came and we all proceeded to get quite drunk. it was really fun. i cant wait to get the pix from it.

Last week reaaallly sucked. between the write-up at work, my cat, and *josh*, ive been going insane. not just for me tho. josh sal and robert have been having a time of things too from what i hear. so much stuff has been upsetting me lately that i dont even have the heart to write it all. the car insurance people charged me for an extra day which pissed me off too so i hafta call and bitch at them tomorrow about it. then i have to try to do some wedding planning, too since i finally have a day off. most likely ill spend all day playing horizons and not do a damn thing. having lunch with steph tho so at least that will force me to put on clothes for the day 😛 oh yeah and ps – my computer is D-E-D dead! stupid thing. i miss my iTunes.

upcoming events:
danielle is having a party sat night which im excited about (note to self: buy vodka)
mar 17th is the Trapt/Nickelback/Chevelle show
mar 18th i have some stuff going on too

“Cat’s butts are cleaner than ours. You don’t see us licking our butts al day” ~ Analiese

“I can’t get it up.” ~ Dixie

“Could you eat L—- ten times over?” ~ Ally

And my weakness is
That I care too much

On a different note, today is Paul and my’s 5 year anniversary. yay us

Had a bad day
Don’t talk to me
Gonna ride this out

This morning i took valentine to the vet cause she was looking a little bloated. they took an xray and it turns out half of her abdomen is full of cancer and she needs to be put down asap. i knew this was coming cause shes 16 years old (A cats lifespan is average of 15-17 years), but i thought when i found out she was sick thered be a slow process over months or something. i didnt think the day i realised she was sick was the day she would have to be put down. i couldnt bare to do it all so suddenly, so i took her home with me. but i need to bring her back sometime this week to have her put down. we just lost her sister last year and now shes dying too and its really really horrible. i was really upset that i was in london when steph took frisky in cause i didnt get to say goodbye. but on the other hand, frisky was dead before i even knew about it so in a way it was easier. its like how can *i* be the one to decide when valentine dies? its not right for me to choose the day she dies and to *know* that this is the last day i have with her. paul thinks we should take her tomorrow. which is Valentines Day. somehow i like the idea of doing it on valentines day cause then its like the day is for *her* instead of st valentine. but i dont know if i can deal with today being my last day with her. im having so much trouble with dealing with this. i cant bare the idea of letting her go. im also trying to figure out how i want to do it. the vet said i can go in with her when they put her to sleep. i know theres no way i could handle that. she said some people stay while they put her under anesthesia but not for the actual shot to put her to down. i dont htink i could do that either. do i even want to carry her in to the vet? do i want to stay home and watch paul take her away? i dont know what to do. i really cant handle any of this. every time i think about it i start crying and my chest tightens and i feel anxious.

JCPenney is having a baby sale. Buy one baby get one free?

hello from athens. i love athens, im also drunk off my ass. i went to downtown drinking with kent and his friends dave and crystal. i realyl really like them. they rock. i saw ben tonight too. he looked good. damn i miss london and athens where you ccan party and drink and not hafta worry bout how to get home. aby how iim having fun. ill write more next time im sober. im going to lave all the typos in thos one tho cause i wamt tp laugh at my self in the morning when im sober at how i wrote my msg when i was wasted

Well last night was the last of my Christmas festivities. So here it was beginning to end.

Pre Xmas

My Christmas already felt kinda bleh this year cause things didnt seem very christmasy and i didnt have my usual xmas spirit. first i never had time to do my tree . when i did drag our tree out of the basment and started to put it together, i discovered that the Mousekewitz family that lives in the basement had shredded the tree skirt and made a nest in the branches, so there were bits of red plaid cloth all thru the branches and it was kinda gross. so it wasnt until the thurs before xmas that i got a new tree and got one put up.

Saturday

so then christmas eve rolls around and the day of i discover im working a closing shift. when they asked me to pick up the shift i had no idea it was a closing shift. also i had no idea that my grandparents dinner started at 5pm (i figured it started around 7). i was totally stressed all through closing the store trying to get everything done and get out of there on time to make it to the lake for the big christmas dinner. this is the one that has all 40 relatives there with all my aunts and cousins. paul and steph came and met me at petsmart and i finally got out at 7:30. we call my dad up to say im off work, and he says everyone is going to leave in about an hour. by the time we drove there that would only leave us 30 mins of seeing everybody, so we ended up not going. i already didnt see any of this family last year since i was in london for xmas, and i went to TN for thanksgiving, so I havent seen any of these people for 2 years now. i know what some of you are thinking…about how i usually do anything i can to get *out* of going to the lake and seeing my relatives cause i dont like any of them, but this year i wanted to go and make a good impression on them cause its the last chance id have to see them before inviting them to my wedding and i thought if theyd seen me recently theyd be more inclined to show up. i think me not going really isnt all that big of a deal, and me making that shift change allowed me to make it to a get together with my friends from work the night before, which honestly was way better than dealing with my family, but the point i think looking back was that this was yet another xmas eve that i spent stressed out and anxious about trying to make it up to the damn lake. paul, steph, and i had dinner at fridays instead, then i went home and wrapped all the presents and went to bed at midnight.

Sunday

considering id only had 3 hours of sleep the night before at Dixie’s apartment and then worked all day, when my alarm clock went off at 9am christmas morning, i couldnt deal with getting up and going out all day that day, so i went back to sleep until 10, which was when i was sposed to already be at my moms house for christmas. we get up at 10 and steph calls saying mom has cooked us a huge breakfast and its all ready and where are we. so steph and i got in a fight cause she was mad at me and i was mad at myself for sleeping in when they were waiting on us. paul and i got there around 11 i guess and we had a great breakfast of pancakes, eggs, bacon, sausage, and chocolate fondue. i love love love breakfast. i could eat it 24/7. i was disappointed that my mom didnt have a xmas tree at all for us to open presents under (ok so she had a 2 ft tall undecorated tree but thats not hte same), but the breakfast and the presents and them being in such a good mood made me feel better after all the nonstop negativity id been feeling. i got a bunch of great stuff and my sister was thrilled with the necklace i got her.

an hour later my mom headed off for Tenn ( i so wish i could have gone)and the three of us (paul, steph, and me) headed up to the lake to see my dad, grandparents, and uncle’s family. at first i found it a lil awkward cause my grandmother makes me a little uneasy, but eventually us “kids” ran off from the adults and i just hung out with my cousin and his gf, lizzie, that he brought down with him. shes super sweet and i totally adore her.

next stop was paul’s parents house for christmas dinner. they made pot roast that was so so so good. they also gave me a $100 gift certificate to Kohls so i get to go shopping!

after dinner paul went home and i met back up with steph, my cousin chris, and lizzie to go see Fun With Dick and Jane.

Monday

monday i had to work in the morning (luckily daniel switched with me cause i was sposed to be closing which means i would have missed the other christmas dinner too!) and got off at 6. my dad was having an informal dinner at his house with my aunt and uncles family. my grandfather and jane werent able to make it cause he ended up having to go to the hospital for some kinda stomach problem so we didnt see him. i felt bad for him having to sit at the hospital all day instead of seeing his family. after dinner the adults and two of my cousins left to go to the hospital to see him, so steph, chris, lizzie, my other cousin adrian (chris’s brother), stephs bf will, and i watched the island and hung out.

Thursday
last night was lauren and mys christmas get together with all our friends from high school. we have one every year and i love seeing them all. i missed it last year cause of being in london so i was especially excited to see everyone. a lot of people couldnt make it this year which was really disappointing, but i did still get to see lindsey and sarah and jana and shawna and jeff all of whom i havent seen in years. lauren and i had made a dvd slideshow of pictures of all of us from the 9th grade up to last year that we played for everyone and then gave a copy to each person. shawna and i are talking again now which is awesome. it was lots and lots of fun and i really miss my high school days when we all hung out like that every weekend. you hear stuff about people never remaining friends after high school, but looking at our group that just so isnt true. ive never had friends like my high school friends.

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Today steph and i went to a petstore in woodstock where i got a new african clawed frog to replace keroppi (who died a couple of months ago). i got a baby albino one, so hes a peachy pink flesh color instead of brownshgrey. I have named him Ahiru no Pekkle — Pekkle for short. So now i have Spottie Dottie and Pekkle. Pekkle is really cute…all lil and pink. he seems to be very active. Right now hes in my little 2gallon. When hes big enough, ill move him to the tank with Spottie Dottie. I also bought SD two lil tiny feeder fry to eat and shes totally a domesticated frog. she swishes her lil arms at the fish when it swims by, totally in vain, as if the fish would hold still while she ate it. the lil fish just dart away, totally unphased by their not-so-near death experience.