getting there

lucas came one step closer to crawling today…he was on all fours and was able to lift a hand and smack it on the ground. then at one point he slid his knee forward but then he flopped.

on the 26th on the ride home from TN he held his own bottle in the car seat and was able to both hold on to it and tip it up

walmart is ruining xmas!

UGH. so first i find out that i have to get a new tree so i didnt get my tree put up until *Dec 16th* (only 2 weeks before xmas!!). then i go to walmart (in the middle of the night to avoid people, i really dont like going to walmart to begin with) and they don’t have any normal colored lights. just boxes and boxes of blue. are there really *that* many people that have blue trees? the one single multi box i found was not enough to cover the tree, so i started over today and went to a different walmart by the mall where i bought a 400 count set of multi lights. i open it tonight to put them on the tree, and they are white instead of green. ungh. so now im heading out to target in hopes that THEY actually have NORMAL xmas lights so i can finally decorate my tree!

update: so i went to target to get more lights. the lights ended up costing me $180 because i love target (so much pleasanter shopping there than at walmart) and found a ton more little gifts for everyone. i think i might be having trouble finding xmas lights because it seems that the thing to get now are the LED lights. target didn’t even seem to have the regular kind, just the LED ones. so i bought multi-colored, green wired LED lights. i dont like them. they are super bright like outdoor lights or something. it’s just too overwhelming. my favorite ones ever i got at walmart a few years ago where each bulb is two colors. splitting the bulbs in half like that actually make them even less bright than the regular ones and i think those are the prettiest because it gives the tree a subtle twinkley color instead of looking like youre hanging traffic lights from your tree. i think the blue bulbs are the worst ones so im thinking about getting an additional strand of clear and replaceing all the blue bulbs with white to tone it all down. for this year tho the tree is staying as is because im fed up. it’s one week till xmas and the tree is just now getting up and decorated. hopefully all the ornaments will distract from the bulbs.

im supposed to post

ahhh i’ve really gotta start preparing for xmas in october and november. i feel like im going to lose it this week. i still have sooo much to do and i am *out of time*

lucas has the top quarter of his two front bottom teeth now. we got portraits done at sears and he is so freakin cute. i told paul we owe it to the world to have lots of babies since ours come out so cute.

no more guilt trips

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i don’t want to hear another word about paul’s mom and “oh i bet she’s so lonely and so sad…she’s all alone…” all that crap that makes me feel guilty that we don’t pay any attention to her. i wnet out of my way and out of my shell to talk to her, locate a therapist that speaks korean and is familiar with the korean culture to meet with and try to mend the relationship between the family, and she doesn’t even care. if she doesn’t care to fix things then she is obviously doing just fine and doesn’t need us. since i already typed all this out to lauren in IM, i’ll paste it here.

ModernHecate (9:28:06 PM): i got a call just now from pauls mom
ModernHecate (9:29:04 PM): sayin she couldnt go tomorrow because she has another heart doc appointment or something. i asked her when she would want to reschedule the appt for. she starts telling me this whole thing about how now just isnt a good time for any of this because she has other stuff to deal with and what did i need to tlak about?
ModernHecate (9:29:08 PM): lots more coming
ModernHecate (9:30:08 PM): i tried explainging a couple of the many issues we have with her. like when i mentioned about the power of attorney issue we had awhile back she misunderstood and somehow decided it had something to do with wills and tells me shes not dying yet
ModernHecate (9:30:45 PM): i told her its nothing to do with dying, it’s to do with paul taking care of her money. she says she doesnt have much money anymore because the shop isnt doing well and she doesnt get her military money yet or something or other
ModernHecate (9:30:51 PM): like she thought we wanted her money
ModernHecate (9:30:56 PM): (it’s always about the moneywith her)
ModernHecate (9:31:12 PM): and i said “no i dont mean getting your money, i mean about paul handling it for you
ModernHecate (9:31:24 PM): how you need to make changes in your life”
ModernHecate (9:31:40 PM): and she asked what changes and i said how she needs to sell her house and move into a smaller one since she isnt able to make her house payments
ModernHecate (9:31:56 PM): she says she cant sell her house because of the economy and something about selling her business to pay for her ouse
ModernHecate (9:32:14 PM): fine whatever – this was a small irrelevant issue – but she has an excuse fr every thing we say
ModernHecate (9:32:14 PM): anyhow
ModernHecate (9:32:26 PM): so im saying how we need to talk about htings to fix the family relationships
ModernHecate (9:33:04 PM): and she says that we should just go talk her and i some evening. i said i wanted to do it with the therapist because she speaks korean and she claimed htat didnt matter
ModernHecate (9:33:28 PM): then she said we didnt need to go pay money to talk to a doctor about our personal business because it was none of her business (as if the doc cares)
ModernHecate (9:34:00 PM): so i told her that if she wanted to fix her relationship with paulthat we had to go see the therapist and talk about a whole list of things
ModernHecate (9:34:05 PM): YOU KNOW WHAT SHE TOLD ME?
ModernHecate (9:34:14 PM): “I’M JUST NOT INTERESTED IN THAT RIGHT NOW.
ModernHecate (9:34:34 PM): im busy trying to sell my store and pay off my house…maybe some other time”
ModernHecate (9:37:32 PM): so that’s it. im not bothering anymore either. she obviously doesnt care about fixing things. another thing i realized. she never has any interest in seeing lucas. every once in awhile she calls and says she wants to see him. paul tells her he’ll call her back when its a good time and never calls. i thought she just never saw him because he didnt ever let her…but whenever there is a bill or some pressing matter that she needs, she calls relentlessly until we talk to her
ModernHecate (9:37:44 PM): like she calls and calls or shows up at the house until she gets what she wants
ModernHecate (9:38:02 PM): but other than a couple of times asking that once she never pressed the issue about seeing lucas so i guess she doesnt really care that much
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serendipity

so i was watching Definitely, Maybe on tv. in it ‘will’ finds ‘april’s’ book jane eyre at the used book store and gives it to her as a gift. it reminded me of the movie Serendipity where the guy gets the special book as an ironic wedding gift and it made me want to watch it. when the movie ended i scrolled thru the movie guide for something else to watch, and ta da – serendipity was playing! odd coincidence considering the movie is from 8 years ago.

[ser-uhn-dip-i-tee]

noun

1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.
2. good fortune; luck: the serendipity of getting the first job she applied for.

why paint cats

so last month around halloween i received a blank postcard in the mail. the cover is a cat painted like a skeleton. the address label is typed and the postmark is a prepaid sticker. nothing written…nothing to say who or where it came from. it was weird but then i forgot about it.

today when i got the mail i had *two* more. same thing…a blank postcard with a picture of a painted cat on the cover. we thought we had a lead when one of them happened to have a stamped postmark saying boston. but stephanie claims no knowledge of these mysterious postcards.

it is so weird. who is sending me blank postcards?


http://www.whypaintcats.com

wave bye-bye

yesterday mom was over with lucas while paul and i were at the doc. then mom and i watched The Ugly Truth. when paul went to take lucas upstairs for a nap, mom waved bye-bye to him and lucas waved back! he was trying to move his arm up and down and flex his fingers to copy the motion that mom made. i might have passed it off for a fluke, but then he did it again later for me! same situation, paul was holding him and i waved bye-bye to him and he waved his arm back at me!

i slept alllll day today. i don’t know if it was from the meds or being sick or both or what. in the few hours of awake time i have had, i’ve been “being scrappy” as i like to call it. paul mentioned that dr duff and frank’s wife jennifer were talking about scrapbooking at dinner friday night (the one i didn’t get to go to–oh and apparently mrs duff dragged dr duff to the midnight premiere of new moon, too lol) and paul asked how much of lucas’s i had done. i realized i am very behind on his as i haven’t finished anything past 3 months old so i’ve been working on getting some new pages put together. i need to go buy a 3 ring album like the london book i have rather than these little post bound books that dont hold very much. i just wish they had pretty 3 ring ones instead of just solid leather ones.

i had a dream last night that mady and cara were in my girl scout troop. that they always had been and i never thought anything of it. then Tina, the assistant leader, said she could only come every other meeting and that Jon would be taking her place. then i was thinking how that would mean there would be cameras at the meetings and stuff and i was all freaking out.

sometimes i am amazed by my own klutziness

so i’m upstairs getting some ice cream (the only perk of being sick) and as i’m trying to open the tub, somehow i manage to pinch the palm-side of my pinky btwn the carton and the counter painfully.

i go downstairs an eat my ice cream at my desk. when done, i get up to take away the bowl and when i turned my office chair i managed to pinch the same pinky btwn the chair arm and the desk painfully and tearing the skin a little on the top side of the pinky.

*sigh*


paul and i went to wellstar this morning while mom watched lucas. i’m negative for strep throat, but my throat is inflamed or something and i have now completely lost my voice – lucky paul. i was given some kinda nasty tasting steroid pills to take over the week. *knock on wood* so far lucas has not caught my cold from me.

if u give an insomniac a tree

abeechner: i always thought an insomniac meant people that never slept and were up all night
which is true, but it doesnt have to be that extreme to have insomnia
By definition, insomnia is “difficulty initiating or maintaining sleep, or both”
Onset insomnia – difficulty falling asleep at the beginning of the night, often associated with anxiety disorders.
so i read this thing about how to relax and go to sleep
it said to breath in for a count of 3 and out for a count of 10 (i can only get to 5 til im out of breath) and picture a symbol, liek a tree
so i tried that last night and thought of a tree…
(now we move into the realm of if you give a mouse a cookie)
so i started thinknig of xmas trees
and thought how cool it would be to have a tree in every room
and started mentally decorating different trees
green: hahahaha
abeechner: and then started mentally organizing and storing ornaments by tree for attic storage during the year and how each kid could put together and decorate one tree
green: omg
abeechner: so then i started thinking about the kids
and their xmas lists
and how i should save all their santa letters
and then i started designing a scrapbook
for their santa letters
green: hmm none of this sounds much like sleeping
abeechner: ALL BECAUSE I WAS SUPPOSED TO PICTURE A F-ING TREE